WAR

I’m copacetic in the way
That I let everything, I let everything collapse underneath me
And it’s pathetic hard to say
When I had everything and let it slip away 

This love is war and we lost

So take all I’ve got and leave (I’m slowly healing)
And I’ll bow out quietly (from this old feeling)
Why did it take so long to see
That I had everything exactly how I wanted 

I’m so misguided in every way

I always fight it and it always ends the same
Somebody save me from myself
I’d give up anything, let go of everything if nothing else will help 

This love is war and we lost

(chorus)

Maybe if i disappeared (and started over)
Somewhere far away from here (by thinking sober)
It wouldn’t take me all these years to see
That I had everything exactly how I wanted

Moving Mountains

Tired of falling, falling apart waging wars against myself
And sick of wasting, wasting away to conquer everything I’ve felt
Maybe I just can’t do this, maybe I just can’t do this alone
Maybe I just can’t do this, maybe I just can’t do this alone

I feel alone at war now, I gotta get out somehow|
Drowning slow in self doubt, and anxiety
Tonight’s another blackout, something you don’t know about
Falling lower into this misery 

Maybe I just can’t do this, maybe I just can’t do this alone
Maybe I just can’t do this

Tired of trying, trying so hard moving mountains in my sleep
And sick of hiding, hiding in the dark from things I wish I’ve never seen

Maybe I just can’t do this, maybe I just can’t do this alone
Maybe I just can’t do this maybe I just can’t do this alone

(chorus)

Postcards

I need you, don’t keep my lying here
So sleepless, lost in all my fears
And how do I pretend I’ll be alright
When I’m struggling to get through tonight 

But don’t leave me now I’m hanging on by this thread

 I’ll send you postcards and pictures if I can
Let you walk away but I know I can’t
Let go of everything like I never would
Thousands of miles and one more scar
Arizona’s just too far 

I see you, don’t act like you can’t tell
I know you feel me here, do I serve to quell
All that guilt you’ve had pent up for so long
Is it so hard to admit to us you’re wrong

You’re leaving now, I’m letting go of this old thread

(chorus)

I woke up in a safe place, I was facing old mistakes
If you had the chance would you kill some time
I was the last to find my way like I’ve been chasing distant fate
Taking everything down with me as I go 

And in all my dreams, always haunting me
If not now when will we say goodbye 

Seems like we’re playing hide and seek
It seems like you’re running out of secrets
I sense your thoughts and every weakness
Just give it up, just give it up and let go
Feels like we’re diving off the deep end
Constantly fighting off our demons
I sense your thoughts and every weakness
Just give it up, just give it up and let go

I’ve been trying to retrace my past for a few days
But nothings making sense it’s all blurred lines
If I could just get away from everything
I’d take the loneliness and bloodshot eyes 

Chorus

It’s time to let things go you’re gonna scare them all away
When an old doors closed there’s a reason you can’t find the key
Its time to start again somewhere better somewhere new
So say goodbye to your friends cause they wont wait around for you
They’re not waiting no 

I wanna get carried away, get lost somewhere strange
Somewhere no one remembers your name
They’ll all forget you 

So what do we do now? I want to shed off my old skin
Wander in a new town, somewhere I can’t take advantage of it
I want a brand new face, a new smile, some better teeth
I just wanna replace, whatever that mirror sees
I’m sick of everything 

I wanna get carried away, get lost somewhere strange
Somewhere no one remembers your name
I’ll restart everything, I won’t regret anything
In this town where no one remembers my name

The house it catching fire, smoke signals cloud the sky
As neighbors tread the sidewalks and film as they go by
Is anybody out there? Is anyone alive? 

Religion owns the airwaves, race wars in the TV
The innocent are bought by their fake reality
Isn’t anybody listening? This is the new society 

So here we stand so divided and afraid
In a world gone cold where everyone’s the same
So there goes all of our dignity
It don’t make sense to me
To be a part of this 

Nobody said it’d be easy
To go back where we came from
This isn’t youthful rage, this isn’t older age
Its where we’re right and they’re wrong

2x

I feel the world start crumbling
I see the background fall apart
I hear a voice when I’m dreaming and the beat of my heart
Is it her that I’m waiting for
Beneath the flicker of the streetlight?
If it’s true then I think I’ll stay asleep tonight 

I just need her to know I never meant to let her go
The only one I need, my all and everything
And I don’t want to wait, or get my vision straight
She’s all I need to see, my all & everything 

It’s unclear just a silhouette
I can sense a nervous smile
I’m sure there’s more that I could get if I just stayed a while
I’m well aware this lucidity
It makes me feel alive
I don’t miss reality, don’t wake me up tonight 

(chorus)

 I feel the world start crumbling
I see the background fall apart
When we’re here it’s just you and me

So tell me where to start

I just need you to know I never meant to let you go
You’re the only one I need, my all & everything
And I don’t want to wait, or get my vision straight
You’re all I need to see, my all & everything

Like glass we see straight through
(these lies they cut like knives)
We only want the truth
(but it’s not that easy for you)
Resent, regret, repent, repeat
(you’re like a vicious disease)
Expect no sympathy, you had your chance to get away 

You call it what you choose
(it’s just another excuse)
I just don’t believe you
(when you have everything to lose)
Silence is gold at times like these
(and your words are full of deceit)
No time for questioning, it’s clear you’re hiding from me 

Whoa

I swear that I will never lie
As you sleep with regret, just know I won’t forget it
These sleepless nights, but I’m alright
Ignore the things you said, but you found your way in my head

They don’t know the dirty little secrets you hide
Such a mess in distress, you just keep playing with fire
In your own little world you can’t hide from the truth
Can’t explain you’re afraid, such a useless excuse
Letting go a little more everyday 

How did I get this way?

Whoa, whoa I might as well have stayed asleep
Whoa, whoa where’d I go wrong with everything
Now I’m so tired, exhaustions got the best of me
And I’m stuck between who am I and who I’m supposed to be 

Waking up the demons that live in your mind
Whats it take to escape for you to just leave it behind
There’s a voice in your head telling you, you should leave
But the monster inside still has you deceived
Killing you a little more everyday 

I knew I never should have stayed

(chorus)

Well I don’t feel like myself tonight
Cause I feel everything but I guess that’s alright
And I know I cause a fire a small spark that we ignite
Like a sore man begs for mercy,
Like we’re too drunk to decide 

Oh, and if I try my best to make it right
And if I cry, would you stay with me tonight 

Oh and if you only had the time
To let me in and apologize
Cause all it seems to familiar, this pain we leave in songs
So show me what’s right
And tell me what I’ve done wrong 

(chorus)

Now I’m all alone and broken, so broken
And I’m all alone
Can you fix me again, can you fix me again?
Cause I don’t know if I can stand to 
Lie and tell you I’m alright and cry

Going deaf from the silence
The wheels keep turning but I can’t make a sound
And I’m out of ideas to get out
This wells dry of excuses
But filled to the brim with high hopes and bullshit delusions
It’s suffocating me, the self doubt
I know what I stand for, I know what this fight is about 

As I drift out to sea, under the water
Until my lungs fill and you forget me
As I fight to breathe, and drown as a martyr
I’ll die slow with integrity 

Going blind from the darkness
So cold I’m burning, this illness with no real solution
And I’m all out of sedatives now 

And I’ve tried to give it up
I’d love to but I just don’t know how 

(chorus)

 There’s no solution, there’s no relief for me to believe in