Sick

There is no amount of medicine to fix what’s in my head,
I’m afraid that I have felt this for some time, 
and although I strive for betterment, there’s not much to be said,
I am broken, for I’ve seen my worlds collide,
Somewhere far off lies a different man whom I once claimed to be, 
Now it seems that I can barely hear his voice, 
And if our paths ever cross again this message I will leave, 
Use conviction for you always have a choice, 

So don’t lay me down in the crossfire, 
For i never thought you’d leave, 
and if I don’t make it back, with my body still intact,
there are secrets that I’ve sworn to die with me,  

I have worked my fingers to the bone, seen my knuckles bleed,
for the chance that i can finally get it right, 
and if my lungs dare give up on me at least i know I tried, 
but until then, i will carry on the fight, 

 so don’t lay me down in the crossfire, 
for i never thought you’d leave, 
and if i don’t make it back, with my body still intact,
there are secrets that I’ve sworn to die with me…

Risk It All

There’s a shadow hanging over me, 
disrupting every thought inside my head, 
looming waiting hauntingly, hoping that i let myself give in,
all the while I’ve tried not to believe, in every awful word you’ve ever said,
when you’ve held on quite as long as i, its hard to stop those words from sinking in,  

Don’t let them drag you down, its harder if you fall,
the more you wait around, the more you risk it all,  

As the words come back to me, i find it in my heart to carry on,
I’m fine although I try to be, stronger than the weight of all that’s gone,
when I was young i told myself, never stray away from what you love, 
now I gaze through starry eyes, and wonder where in hell did i go wrong, 

Don’t let them drag you down, its harder if you fall,
the more you wait around, the more you risk it all… 

Easy

I am more lonely than i have ever been, 
I am more tired than you could know, 
I have seen far too much for a lesser man, 
couldn’t bare to live with what I’ve seen or know,

 And if i am the last remains of the honest chance, 
then what hope there once was is not what’s left, 
and of all of the things that haunt me from my past, 
the worst is knowing there’s no turning back,

So take it easy on yourself, just like you’ve always done, 
and at the end of the day, when ambition fades away, 
you’ll find nothing but the mess of what’s become,  

We all live our lives in search of the upper hand, 
for the promises kept and what they meant, 
and if all of our times in spite of the lesser man,
from where we’re heading theres no turning back

 So take it easy on yourself, just like you’ve always done, 
and at the end of the day, when ambition fades away, 
you’ll find nothing but the mess of what’s become…

One day woke up, to the sound of your embrace,
n’ with the city on my mind, leaves an awful taste,
n’ I told you, to never speak my name,
cause as long as he’s around, you and I are not the same,
a shallow hate, for a world I’ll never change,
I’ve grown lost inside my mind, stuck in my old ways,
we all hate, the things which we can’t change,
if you open up your heart, maybe then you can finally see, 

 We all just need somebody to love, 

Day by day, n’ still I can’t forget your name,
and every time I close my eyes, I’m haunted by your face,
we all hate, the things which we can’t change,
the points in knowing that, in the end we’re all the same, 

 We all just need somebody to love. 

The rain came nearly washing over everything,
for I knew that it was time for me to leave,
so I sang a song for old times sake,
then headed on my way,
when the rain came it was time for me to leave,  

I used to think I’d have a friend through anything,
how those people i once loved have all but gone,
so ill stumble down this a lonesome,
in hopes when i get home,
I might have something to show for it all, 

I will navigate the stormy weather,
always felt that i would make it through, back to you,
well I’d pour out all my heart and soul to prove, it’s all that I can do.

I’ve been away, three months and a day,
but my baby, she didn’t wait for me, what can I say?
been digging my own grave,
can you blame me, that’s how it has to be,
All that’s left are, memories, 

And I say, take me away, back to the kid I used to be,
back to the sweeter times when life was on my side, some say,
It’s better to wait, than to just throw it all away,
but I would do anything for just another try, this is my life 

But still I play, the show must go on, and my music,
is all that I can take, oh how I ache,
from all the things I’ve seen,
feel like I’m losing the better parts of me,  

And I say, take me away, back to the kid i used to be,
back to the sweeter times when life was on my side, some say,
it’s better to wait, than to just throw it all away,
but I would do anything for just another try, this is my life

Still I think back on a time,
when I was yours and you were mine, nothing’s ever felt so right in my life, 

And I say, take me away, back to the kid I used to be,
back to the sweeter times when life was on my side, some say,
It’s better to wait, than to just throw it all away,
but I would do anything for just another try, this is my life

Don’t think, I don’t notice, when you look at me that way,
see I made a mistake, on a promise, that I’m hoping I can change, 
when you don’t think twice you may lose the life of a friend, 
so I’ll count my stars for I am a lucky man, 

So I’ll pray, though I know that, what I’ve done I’ll never change, 
if I die tomorrow, I sure hope that, I’ll be greeted by His grace,
seems I broke his trust and so now I must pay fee, 
but I’ll give my life lord don’t give up on me,  

give up on me,
give up on me,

if I don’t stay strong tonight, then show me a sign, 
’cause the end is near, and I don’t see the light… 

Do you still think of me, from time to time?
‘cause I’ll admit you cross my mind
and I know that ship has sailed, 
but still I wonder how, you’re making out, if he’s gone or still around
and I pray, someday that fails, 

 Somewhere along the line I stopped believing, ‘cause the old me’s dead and gone,
I used to think things happened for a reason, but I was fucking wrong, 

You’ll leave me high and dry, just like the rest, it’s quite alright
I must confess that I’m used to this by now, 
and if you’ve heard the talk, you’ve figured out,
that I’m the God damn worst in town, so please buy into them,  

I swear we’ve got a right to our opinions,
but in time they’ll find your flaws,
now here’s my chance to say what I’ve been thinking, 
you’re all so fucking wrong.