14 MONTHS

It’s another beautiful day at the beach.
Haven’t you heard the news today?
I have told you many times before.
I don’t want to know.  

It’s such a beautiful day at the beach and no one knows
what’s about to happen and
I don’t want to hear it once again,
i have other memories there.  

It’s a great day at the beach and the sun is still shining.
How can you wake up one day and tell yourself:
“Today, I’m gonna drown my baby” 

MOTHER DROWNS HER 14 MONTHS OLD
“What a fucked up world”

AS LONG AS IT TAKES

Part 1:
I promise you and I promise the world I will take care of you
Don’t you worry, I keep words and we’ll go through this together.
Just be strong and be patient,
You’re in my hands and I’ll be watching you and nothing will happen to you.
I won’t let it get you, it will be ok.
You will be just fine.
If that’s what you want.  

 Part 2:
Believe me, when I tell you, I‘m gonna help you because I mean it. I’m going to be there for you I‘m not going to let this thing control you
you’re worth more than you think you are
just trust me and believe in yourself I’m not going to let you down
You can do it.
I m gonna help you I mean it.I ‘m going to be there for you
As long as it takes...  

for as long as it takes I’ll be next to you
Just hang in there, I’m not going anywhere
You are not alone
As long as I’m here with you
I’ll be next to you.

UMBILICUS

Mamma’s boy cut the cord
Mamma’s boy cut it off.

If you recognize yourself just by hearing this title,
you know it’s true. You can’t do anything alone.  

Mamma’s boy cut the cord
Mamma’s boy cut it off.

It’s never your fault, and you think everybody cares
But only your momma does, I know it’s hard but it is true.

Mamma’s boy cut the cord
Mamma’s boy cut it off. 

Open your eyes and realize, you’re annoying everyone,
with your problems and they’re only yours. Only yours..
The world don’t revolve around you.
Remember, no ones cares... so why.. why???
Should I? Should I? 
Open your eyes!  

No, I won’t clean your mess anymore.
Cover you, defend you, you are on your own!
I’m not your mother!

Spending hours figuring you out. Making excuses for your ignorance some say..
It’s pointless.  

I’m super shy and introverted, you will never know, how I really feel
and what I think of you as much as I love to fantasize about you
I can’t stand the not knowing. 

Truth is, I should let you go.
You just don’t see me that way I see you,
But someone else will, someone as wonderful as you.  

All I really need to do is ask you, but I’m too self conscious and I’ve been there before.
I’m just not ready yet to accept ‘cause deep down I know and we always do.
Don’t we?  

Truth is, I should let you go.
You just don’t see me that way I see you,
But someone else will, someone as wonderful as you

I can’t stop wondering If you had a moment of doubt
I can’t stop wondering If you had a moment of guilt
I can’t stop wondering If you hesitated
I can’t stop wondering If people can be so numb.  

I can’t stop wondering If you had a moment of humanity
before you decided to blow yourself up  

I can’t stop imagining and I don’t believe that you did not see, Kids, those new angels..
Having a good time.  

Smiling, laughing, dancing, loving.

Don’t tell me you could not feel it, no matter how bad of a monster you have made yourself become.
You probably could not go back,
You probably had to come through.  

Firing, screaming, crying, killing.

Numb Killer

Smiling, laughing, dancing, loving.
Firing, screaming, crying, killing.

She might not feel this way but she’s not invisible
She might not feel this way but people care about her
I care about her. She is.. 

Lost ‘n cold.

She might not feel this way but she brought a smile to face,
tears of joy and brightened my whole day
She passes like a ghost looking down ashamed with heavy bags
She is..  

Lost ‘n Cold

She might not feel this way but life is still full of surprises
She might felt it today, love around the corner.
I hope she’ll know one day that this song is for her
and that she’ll never bother.
I hope that she is not  

Lost ‘n cold anymore

Beautiful Kids, Beautiful Kids of Ireland
Sweet creatures of the world
It’s time to wake up.  

I’m talking to you, sitting by the store
Bleeding from your scratches, your boyfriend begging
I’m talking to you, falling asleep by the church
and you, wandering around lost and confused. 

You’re so high, so freaking high

Sweet kids of Ireland, you’re still beautiful to me.
To all of you, hopeless beautiful kids.
WAKE UP!  

Parents of Ireland, it’s time to care again.
Care for your kids.
Parents of Ireland, what if you walked into your kids, today?  
You’re so high, so freaking high
WAKE UP!

Trying to write this, without letting a tear go.
Sad is not even the appropriate word.
Can’t even be mad, I don’t even have time.
Looking back the only thing that makes me smile is your speech, your words, your fake-ness... so ..
No, I’m not mad my friend.  

I just don’t have anything to say.
I’ve opened up myself to you, I trusted you, and you took it all and
Made it yours, I wish you well or not I don’t know I’m just hurt.  

Now you’re off living a married life. I wonder if she knows, I wonder what she knows.
All the secrets that we’ve shared, have you told her?
Your dirty little secrets too?
She must think that, she’s finally found. “The perfect man”, someone that she can trust,
Oh, you know.. so well.. how to play this part so...
No, I’m not mad my friend.  

You’ve hurt me like no one has before.

COPYCAT

So tell me, what you’re hiding?
What’s your secret, who’s the real you? I know you have so much inside.
Just like I do..
We’re not like others and I know you know it too. I‘ve know the surface but I want to dig more.
Meet the real you because I know there’s much more behind and I’m here to listen.

 Introduce me to your soul and to your heart, who you really are.
It’s with that person that I feel connected to or attracted to and I know you feel it too.

 So don’t be scared to open up because we’re just lost souls in bodies and,
We found each other so whenever you’re ready
I am here all ears.

You know I’m patient and I’ve already been waiting for so long.
Time doesn’t scare me anymore I’m not in a rush.
I know you know, how I see you. I’ll be here for you
Im just glad we’ve found each other again so whenever you’re ready
I’ll be here all ears.

Waiting for you, Listening to you, we’ve got time and we’ve got life.
you don’t have to hurry. You know I know. I know you know.
I’ll still be here all ears.